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ALPHABET SERIES /part 1/





   "I have all the adjustments, he has the happiness."

    Maybe, if there is one thing that I could say to make you contented, these are the words, "it's okay, go ahead. Have fun." Of course, that means, having fun with friends, and not with me.

    Right now, there's no room for martyrs anymore and definitely being one of them proves that, on the contrary, I had been escaped from the curse. I have to exist for him. I don't want to feel the bitterness of rejection so that I have been acting what he tries to say all the time like a puppet. By that, there hadn't been any fool heartaches. None, as of now.



    Every time he wishes to be alone or to have little time with his buddies, I'd just say, "It's okay, go ahead. Have fun." At the end of the day, there hadn't been any form of heated arguments. That was good in our 2-year relationship. I have all the adjustments, he has the happiness. This isn't fair but it has to be. I love him but I know that the aftermath will be the hardest part of all.

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