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ALPHABET SERIES /part 14/

 I have to complete my illusion.
As the clock ticks, I am waiting for my fragile heart to ignore the feeling of being so left out.
I have to focus on what matters most in my life right now.
and that is...
me.
my emotions. my feelings.

 In the past years of my boring life, I have to center on the things dictated by charlatans. Giving them the satisfactions which they do not deserve at all. How about my enjoyment?  Is there anything that I can do for myself? besides following orders... what else?

 I have to complete my illusion.
Sometimes, being there all the time and watching every sad scenes that are always going on, make me sick.
People do not deserve to know everything.
We have to take a break.
Breath.
Close your eyes and do not watch the embracing crimes of the world.
You have to do it.
Alone.

 I have to complete my illusion.
I have to make another door.
Door to the world of happiness.
And not let anyone come in.
For me, being alone is like putting myself to the safe haven.
I am free.
Free from orders.
That's why I am the boss.

 and that is my illusion.

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