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Happiness for Sale: Is it possible?

Happiness has its special part in everyone's lives. And sometimes when that certain happiness comes our way, the perfect natural bliss leads us to the top of the clouds. But when an external force corrupts the fairy tales in us, depression will automatically shots unexpectedly.

 I am in the process of creating a story and my theme is about happiness. I asked my friend about her opinion on my subject. She told me it is unique but there is a certain aspect which is missing. Anyway, I will not going to elaborate my story here, I just want to share our conversation on facebook. My friend is a very good critic. She has her own way about everything. But sometimes she finds herself battling thousands. She always on the losing side but I always agree to what she is saying. And that will become our side versus the thousands.

 And our conversation goes like this:
HER
May i-su-suggest ako sayo.

ME
About what?

HER
'Bout your story

ME
Sige, ano 'yun?

HER
Nakaka-develop kasi ako ngayon ng fear of 
happiness. Ha!ha!ha! Pero mild lang.

ME
Ha? In what way? Grabe weird mo talaga.

HER
'Yung feeling na sobrang fan ka ng happiness pero
para bang pinagkakait sayo. Tapos feeling mo pa lagi 
na kapag masaya ka, may kapalit. Siguro base on my experience 
na rin.

I did not reply to that. And after a moment, she typed:

HER
Lagi kasing ganoon. 'Yung happy ako ngayon tapos maya-maya
out of nowhere bigla na lang may
reason para ma-down ka.

ME
Kasi you're thinking that way. Don't overthink.

HER
Kaya feeling ko kapag happy ako babala na 'yun 
na may nagbabadyang trahedya. Ha!ha!ha!

ME
Ako nga, always searching for it eh! Ha!ha!ha!

I waited for her reply and then suddenly, I felt the grief on the tone of her words when she typed:

HER
What if happiness can be bought? Siguro bibili ako ng
madami. Bultuhan para may reserba.

I did not know then that her words were came out based on her realistic view about her own happiness. I just replied a crying emoticon.

HER
What if your own happiness doesn't even want you to become happy?

I am dumbfounded but I typed:

ME
Minsan kasi kalaban natin 'yung sarili nating kasiyahan.

She did not react to my reply but she gave her view about her previous comment.

HER
Yes you can buy bunches of it. Pero artificial lang
siya. Hindi totoo.

And then I replied:

ME
Kaya one day we will just find out na hindi tayo naging masaya
sa sarili nating kasiyahan.

I agreed to her about one thing:

ME
Tama, artificial lang. 'Yan ang tumbok ng story ko.

HER
Mas made-depress ka pa lalo kasi alam mong hindi
totoo. Kasi wala ka ng ibang way para maging
masaya kundi ang bumili nito. Mas masakit 'yon.
Kalaban natin si happiness pag may takot tayo.

She revises my thought that's why I defended my idea.

ME
Minsan kasi in an hour gusto mong balikan 'yung 
mga bagay na nakapagpapasaya sayo hanggang 
sa dumating na 'yung point na mare-realize mo na
you have to stop and earn natural happiness.

HER
True!

ME
Ginagamit 'yung kasiyahan para makapag-move-on

HER
Hindi mo mapipilit maging masaya ang taong miserable.
Kaya nga may salitang move-on. Kapag
miserable ka sarado ka sa lahat ng bagay!

ME
That's the point. Your're miserable. Kapag nagtuloy tuloy yan
at wala nang break, suicide and depression ang kasunod nyan.
That's why sa story ko, rest your miserable life in one hour,
gawin mong routine hanggang sa magsawa ka na
at makapag-move-on

HER
Mayroon ding mga taong searching for happiness 
kasi miserable sila. But at the end of the day pag wala
na yung hang-over ng happiness, ano ba
ang nangyayari? Diba masakit pa din naman.

She asked me something...

HER
Naging miserable ka na ba? 'Coz one can only tell.
Even time can't heal a broken heart or a broken life.

I did not respond. And she agreed to me:

HER
Oo nababawasan. Pero nandiyan pa rin yan. No matter what!

ME
That's why dapat may external force kang kukunin, kumbaga isang tao o
material o situation na makakasama mo once the
hangover got better. Kaya nga in reality may mga tao na 
nagta-trabaho na lang o kaya nag-iiba ng lifestyle, o
kaya binubuhos sa isang tao 'yung full attention para
di na mabalikan 'yung miserable situation.

HER
Siguro gawin mo sa story mo, hindi kaya ng tech na maging 
masaya siya kasi hindi niya doon mahahanap yun! Sa ka-loveteam niya!
Ha!ha!ha!.May dadating kasi sa buhay ng isang
broken na tutulungan siya na bumangon pero
syempre matatakot na maulit ulit lahat ng miseries.

ME
'Yun nga yung point ng story ko. Nakuha mo! Ha!ha!ha!

After that, we said our goodnights and reality strikes to me...

Life would be easier if we can buy the intangible things that would make us happy. But that is far from reality. Sometimes facing the truth isn't easy but we have to. We are not living in a fairy tale world but we can create happy ending stories if we will use our imagination because I know through it, we are infinite.

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