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That Moment...

I feel the burning intention of making the best possible move for imitating the hardest part of smiling when you bid your goodbye. It is not that easy to just throw all our shared memories, all the laughter and our hard-earned time. Sometimes, I think of a way of throwing them all together because you forgot that I am waiting and I am yearning just to see you once.

Once.

 The moment when you first laid your attention to me, I felt like I was burning inside. Butterflies were kept on flying, dancing  with every beat of my heart. My emotions exploded, giving way to fantasies. I really do like that feeling.

 But...

 You told me that you will keep in touch, I almost fell to that lie when you held my hand under the fast food lane. It was the best lie, I must admit.

 Because...

 I am waiting. After all these years. I am still waiting. You told me and I believed you. I am still waiting. I want to see your thin face again. I am waiting. Your sweet words already drowned me as if I am falling to the dark abyss of your being. I am still waiting.

 Waiting.

 That moment when you told me that you love me was the sweetest and most painful thing that happened to my entire existence.

 That moment... was a lie.

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