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ALPHABET SERIES /part 16/ I found myself befogged  with complicated animosity. Pulling my dreams from the abyss of future chances. To let me feast with silver and gold, To let me ride a car with my own key shining at my wrist. Fantastic views within reach, A make-believe reality within deep voices. A scripted fake-smiles... making my devil laughs. I'm on top of pyramid ... where I saluted the big scam of my life.

ALPHABET SERIES /part 15/ The day you came to my life wasn't an expectation. Since then, I never noticed that you were entering my life in just a few enchanting moments. Yah, I know that this quite exaggerating but all I can say, "BEING WITH YOU WAS THE SWEETEST ALLEGATIONS OF MY MIND TO MY HEART." I found myself guilty of loving you with non-bailable case. Yes, we were luckily in love with each other but our love was not forever I should say. I'm sorry if I came this to far when at the end I had to bid goodbye. Goodbye was the word for farewell, "WE WERE FALLING APART." You said to me intermittently that you were mine; that you built your own happiness with me. It sounded like my forever, shouting through my veins and creating a flow of tenderness. But time flew so fast that feelings were eviscerated and forever was ended. Loving you was my past and now MY HEART WAS COLD AS ICE IN TERMS OF YOUR NAME. You came to my life unexpectedly like m...

ALPHABET SERIES /part 14/ I have to complete my illusion. As the clock ticks, I am waiting for my fragile heart to ignore the feeling of being so left out. I have to focus on what matters most in my life right now. and that is... me. my emotions. my feelings. In the past years of my boring life, I have to center on the things dictated by charlatans. Giving them the satisfactions which they do not deserve at all. How about my enjoyment?  Is there anything that I can do for myself? besides following orders... what else? I have to complete my illusion. Sometimes, being there all the time and watching every sad scenes that are always going on, make me sick. People do not deserve to know everything. We have to take a break. Breath. Close your eyes and do not watch the embracing crimes of the world. You have to do it. Alone. I have to complete my illusion. I have to make another door. Door to the world of happiness. And not let anyone come in. For me, being alo...

IN the midst of struggle between survival and hope, we came to think about the euphoric past that was left behind. For me? It was lost. IN this forgotten corner of the war ground, where rosary and prayers were the only weapon we had, came a very destructive point of our existence. SACRIFICES were all begun last August 07, 2012 where Laguna Lake had expanded and eaten this forgotten corner that we live in. For me? It was lost. AS my naked feet touched the cold and unforgiving flood, I knew that I had to stained my own feet with tears from grieving people. Whenever these happened, I saw the faces covering with confusions and questions like, "Why should always be us?", "Was this a coincidental effect of nature?", "Or was this a reciprocal form of damaging God's greatest gift?". Well, for me? It was lost. I had to reconsidered my thought that God was unfair. He'd done things like our sufferings just to proved that He was the bo...